Welcome To My Life

So, I'm not sure what brings me back here. I have been here before, writing for no purpose, just to release certain feelings. I drifted away for a while, but now I find myself looking for a reason to write. I think it's because I miss that part of my life. When times got hard, I could always turn here for some way of letting it all go. After a few months of things continuously going wrong, i kindof gave up, and started asking myself if there really was a point to this in the first place. I guess I came back because I missed it, because its a part of me, and at this point in my life I feel like I'm losing so much that I can't afford to willingly let anything go without putting up a fight.

I am currently fifteen years old, in my tenth grade of school. I go to a high school in the city, but my mother, step-father, step-sister and I live out in the country. Most times I'm a typical teenager; putting up a fuss when I don't get what I want, while most of my time is taken up with hating my parents. Other times, I'm everything but ordinary, and just when I think I have figured myself out, I couldn't be farther away from an answer.

In life I find, I often get lost. I spend so much of my time analysing the smallest details, that I lose the bigger picture completely. I dissect every situation, and most times have myself convinced everyone is out to get me. I can sometimes overreact, and I am not for one minute scared to admit I'm quite the "Drama Queen" as they say. But; truth be told, I don't mind. I have tried to change myself to better suit other peoples wants, but I always find that nothing is more satisfying then being yourself.

I'm still learning, growing, maturing. I'm still lost half the time, and I'm never afraid to admit that I don't know what to do. I'm going to make mistakes, but I'm going to learn from them, that's a promise I am making to myself.

I am who I am, and I dare anybody to try and change me.

xoxo - Melissa